Doctor Rivers and the Girl

For William Rivers and K.F.

She’s looking for the doctor,
Here are pieces of him, if you care to look,
Rivers is in the mud, in the graveyards,
In Oxford’s thousand year old halls
Where she reads the great Englishmen.

Rivers lives in the scrawl of his notes and letters,
The whispered love with war poets,
He’s with the headhunters,
All those ticcing, weeping warriors walking between the lines.

She will put the good doctor together and you will know him,
She will fill in his lines, shade his edges, rub away
The smears of indifference, the decades that bury him,
Because his mercy still shines on dark aged corners,
He’s been gone more than a lifetime, so he’ll never leave her.

The young soldiers died to prove his power,
They fell down before Rivers, wrote poems
In praise of how he set their minds quiet,
Then sent them back to their duties in hell --
For the pied piper this time he came
Down so gently, with such regret.

Her mum died on the Doctor’s birthday,
But no there’s no negative transference,
He heals all traces of war neurosis, of shellshock,
He puts her back together, too
As she maps his life, gathers the parchments and fragments,
She does it for love, we must love him, too,

Soft eyes, angel by the bedside,
Father of the Empire’s broken toys.

The Ballad of G-20

One night in Oakland town the cops came around
All lined up endless rows, telling us where to go
They have the rubber bullets, they have the gas
They have the authority to beat our asses if we sass em back

Pittsburgh, disperse, Pittsburgh, disperse
What’s the matter with a little order to disperse?
Pittsburgh disperse, Pittsburgh, disperse
Be thankful that it wasn’t any worse, any worse

That night in Oakland town, the cops chased me down
Pinned me on the cathedral lawn, what did I do wrong?
It was a failure to disperse, failure to disperse
Be grateful that it wasn’t any worse, any worse

What’s the matter with a little order to disperse?
What’s the matter with a little order to disperse?

Relax, relax, don’t fear the cops in black
We have all the protections we need
They’ll let us know, when it’s safe to go
Outside and use our rights to fight

So, what’s the matter with a little order to disperse?
What’s the matter with a little order to disperse?
Remember all the countries where it’s worse, where it’s worse
So let’s forgive the little order to disperse
Be thankful that it isn’t any worse, any worse
It was just a little order to disperse

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I'm just kidding. But I still amused the hell out of myself last year by singing this off-key while strumming the only two chords I knew.

G-20 poem

1. The mechanical voice

The mechanical voice has won,
The lines of black-clad cops retract over the most stubborn,
For the chickenshit, the bystanders,
Those waiting for the moment that is not this,
It is time to give up our brief protest.
Somewhere the boy with the bullhorn,
Talking about our God given rights
(“We – the people – have the right – to assemble”)
Has been suppressed, it is over
We will disperse, as commanded.


2. Body anticipation

As we cross the Cathedral lawn,
With tear gas building swiftly behind,
My cousin and I let go of each other’s hands,
Raise them above our heads, walking oh, so slowly
Past one man in armor, no face, weapon at the ready,
I wait for arms wrenched backwards,
Face on the grass, knees in the back, outraged orders,
I wait for the sting of his rubber bullet gun,
Each place on my body anticipating the turn to shining purple-black.

Music

The dead, poets of old can make us cry
With only words and moments, of wars
And love and some slice of feeling unique, but just like us,
Genius in its summation of all matter, all time.
I might be a humble writer, puzzle pieces arranged to a picture,
A builder of clever tricks of the light,
Yet, every time I stand in front of heartcries of old firesides,
With some beautiful boy pushing soul up from the guts,
Or wrenching out of some sweet tangle of wood and strings
Something that bubbles up from our maker, and from isolation,
Everything that hurts most in the world
Everything that troubles the mind or sets it aflame

No matter the turn of the pen and paper
Or however I arrange the pieces into imitation of gold
I will always stand, in some happy crowd, humbled
Sick with jealously, and the sharpest longing
To know like they do – and I will stand, moving
In patterns of joyful instinct,
Knowing I will never hold a roomful of strangers
In this controlled, loving chaos,
This compulsion to stomp and beat
The floor with black boots,
This power, some language
That cuts the air
I cannot speak it
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This is what happened in May '09 when I saw Old Crow Medicine Show front row center. I like the ending. Maybe I can tighten this one? I was never good at purely happy poems, but this one is more jealousy.

Traitor

In that last photo
I took of him in half-shadow,
He looks like a book jacket
From the memoirs of a great dead adventurer;
Or the face of the poster of a long-lost boy,
In black and white where he left us,
When I told him it was okay to leave
If he really couldn’t stand that town.

He turns his face away from the lens
Just so, like he’s seen a better fight,
Away from us and what we have built with killing comforts --
One day I fear I’ll lose him to Montana wildfires, to North Korean refugees,
To sabotaging mink farms and taking over highways,
To the desert, like Ambrose Bierce, and the rest of us
Will have only stories.

He leaves school forever, takes a Greyhound to a Reno payphone,
Suggests he’s going Northwest to save the redwoods,
Says he’ll call again or send a note.
I have earned that much for understanding him.

His mother, on the line in moments,
Knows me and knows her boy
Knows I stammered out a gut-lie before,
And in her voice
I hear the dreadful empty space of all those left--
Christopher McCandless you shouldn’t have,
I think,
And I tell her what I know.